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Tears and Sweat
I spent the day plotting little revenges for minxie in the form of varied sexual games that had her scream into my pillow but before I could arrange to have any of them employed disaster struck. There are many things I adore about minxie and just as many that I hate, for although I have planned to punish her for her whoring in ways she cannot imagine, she still manages to drag me down into the realm of emotion and I am left wallowing in my weakness like a cringing addict.
Tonight her mother had the bad taste to accompany the grim reaper upon his journeys and through her passing managed to leave utter disaster in her wake. When I heard the ambulance had been called to her house my I could feel my heart beat faster, something only minxie has accomplished in my emotional life during the last ten years.
The cold pangs of concern crept up my spine and to my disgust I felt my detachment crumble at the information and I discovered myself actually wondering if she was intact. I would never allow a lesser being see my consternation so I assumed my usual aloof façade while I mined for details in the most nonchalant manner I could manage.
My apprehension of minxie being hurt or even worse her unexpected demise would indeed appear hypocritical, as I usually preferred to inflict harm myself rather than let the fates take control of her destiny, but I find myself always reluctant to take that final step.
Once I discovered it was her mother who had the discourtesy to remove herself without warning from this existence, I knew that my darling would be wrapped in a cocoon of grief and none of my machinations would register in her reality. I found myself possessed with odd longings such as swooping down into her world and taking her back into mine for despite my brief entry into her home I was aware that she was attached to her vague wisp of a mother who would only show the steel beneath the velvet now and then. Minxie you bring out emotions that are both foreign and hateful to me and I shall ensure that you will pay for them once the path is clear for me to act. I went to bed dreaming of her sweet scented skin underneath mine, the scent of tears and sweat mingling while I spent my desires upon her yielding flesh.
